I have noticed on a lot of blogs, people trying to loose weight. I’m one of the lucky ones, I lost all the weight I gained with my pregnancy within a month. Plus a few interest. And now it’s starting to climb right back! And before you think Im a skinny-malinks…Im not. When I fell pregnant, I was already about 15-20kgs overweight for my height etc… So I was over the moon with the extra weight loss, guess it was due to the breastfeeding. And now that I’m breastfeeding less (and eating less healthy too, skipping meals etc..), the scale is heaving once again.
Now I know most of us women would like to look like an Angelina Jolie, gorgeous figure, beautiful lips and long shiny hair- and bonus if you can date Brad Pitt and bear his children… You get the picture, we live in a world where being ‘skinny’ is kind of expected and desired.
Anyways – sometimes however its more than just the weight. Before the pregnancy I was happy with what God gave me, be it now a bit more than I needed, but I was happy and confident with that. But now, a year later…I have lost my Sexy!
I can’t seem to find Her anywhere. She’s not in the shops – I mean have you seen this season’s fashion?? Its just skinny jeans & leggings, with tight fitting tops that seem to drape down to your knees, not exactly flattering for the shape I’m in (and yes, round too is a shape). I can’t find anything that suits my ‘frame’, or what I like or makes me look and feel more WOMAN! Im stuck wearing clothes from 1-2yrs ago, and even some of my maternity outfits… Not sexy at all!
Im not seeing her in the mirror … Just see a lumpy person, with 2 milk jugs and a lot of stretch marks and a big scar, no amount of tissue oil will make that go away completely. And don’t forget the muffin top tummy – I still look a few months pregnant.
I hardly have time most morning to do my hair, as Im sitting here, its looks like I just got out of bed! Thank goodness in my job, we don’t see our clients face to face everyday – I might scare them away!
My skin is in crisis, been 5 months since my last facial, at least that I can fix – going for a facial tomorrow!
Wearing shapeless and unflattering feeding bra’s, also doesn’t add to ones confidence.
I can count the number of times DH saw me naked since May on one hand… Im avoiding it… because I just don’t feel Sexy no more. I have become a Mother, and somehow have traded in my Sexy for that.
How do I get my Sexy back?!?
I know I’d be more confident finding my Sexy, weighing a lot bit less. So I’m considering joining Weightless or something. But that will only change the physical me… (if I stick to it mind you).
Its hard to change my new mindset, which is being a Mom first, then a Wife, and perhaps a Woman. In the Wife category it’s more household chores that get attention.
Starting this weekend, I’m going to try my best to change my thinking, to start looking after myself too, and realize once again for myself I am a Woman and a Sexy one too! I will take a long bath and pamper myself, I will go seek out the sexy lingerie in the bottom of my cupboard, I will ‘beautify’ myself (that includes shaving legs! Don’t have a lot of time to do that lately..lol) and I will give DH an opportunity to see the ‘old’ me in a new light…
I challenge all of you, whether you have lost your Sexy like me or not – TO LOVE YOURSELF!!
To a great weekend!
PS: although my body and life has completely changed, I wouldnt trade having Jessica for the skinniest ass in the world!!